I sometimes feel hurting someone you really care about hurts worse than someone hurting yourself.
I would do anything to make you smile again. It kills me to see and hear about the pain you are in knowing that I’m the one who caused it. I thought that I would feel better, and sometimes I do. However, part of me feels guilty, guilty that I am enjoying myself and I hear about how miserable you are. And the worst part is, no matter what I say or do, I feel it only makes things worse. So I’m left here in silence, only wishing you could understand, only wishing you could be happy again, only wishing you could forgive me, and maybe even forget me. I honestly just want you happy again. I’m sorry for hurting you 😞